its time to choose

life's pretty good at throwing curve balls. curve balls that affect you directly and you swing like you're ready for them, but they duck past and leave you standing at home plate. sometimes its not even you that's at the mound. sometimes it's the people you love and respect the most - that you would rally behind to get a homerun - that are left standing. it's the times that my 'teammates' are left at home plate that i look to who i can be for them and how we can move forward together. and in those moments, i remember how my choice around how i live my day to day life is what can support me in making those moments, and every moment in life, count. i often ask myself: if i look back at today, can i say that i lived outside the box, chose my best life, stood for quality and left others feeling inspired?

because THAT is the goal. to leave a day to day legacy that impacts the people around me to be big...HUGE...and create their life, day to day. to choose themselves - make time for what is important, be with people that make them happy and shower themselves with L-O-V-E - so they can be their best self for those around them and propagate their greatness into the cells of everything and everyone around them and outward beyond that. outward to all humanity, even.

and, for people to know that if the day to day gets hard, if there are roadblocks, if things don't turn out 'the way they were planned', that they still have choice in the matter - that they can choose how they handle the sticky spots. grief is going to get at us. life is going to shift. and in it all, we get to be who we want to be. we choose. minute to minute.

we get to choose who we are for others. we get to choose how we want to handle our environment(s). we get to choose who we are for ourselves.

today, i'm choosing grace and faith in the face of an inexplicable happening. and that's today.

tomorrow will be tomorrow, and i will answer the question: what is it time to choose?

i'll ask you too - what's your moment to moment legacy? and, with that in mind, what is it time to choose?

i wandered...

and am less lost than ever before.

the experience that was wanderlust whistler over friday and saturday of this past weekend was profound - and namely from a 'i had no idea it was like THAT' standpoint.  my logistics/hospitality 'what's the experience' brain was going into overdrive wondering how the city of whistler/blackcomb was going to manage an onslaught of granola-crunching and mat-yielding hippies around the regular influx of weekend warriors that land in the village from thursdays to sundays. and, my vision of mass amounts of organic cotton and hula hoops was slightly satisfied, while my slight fear of an overpowering smell of patchouli (i just can't seem to make my senses appreciate the earthiness that is...) was negated as i began my weekend o'bendy-bliss and landed in a sea of stoked practitioners out to share the culture of yoga with everyone in the village.

biggest #mindmelting moments?

- janet stone 5 elements yoga at 8:00am in 9 degree (celsius) weather. i wore wool socks. was i cold? sure. did i appreciate the crap outta being able to practice in the mountains in the freshest of fresh air. you're dang skippy i did.

- susanne conrad bringing the legacy conversation to us lusty-wanderers.  thinking into the future and looking at what you want to live to see - a very personal conversation yet in sharing what we are committed to, we begin to create its' occurrence.

- kate northrup with bringing the spiritual side of finance to the table - and confirming that it IS spiritual to be rich. sharing 20k in credit card debt with your onlookers, and what it takes to shift your relationship with dolla-dolla bills? #vulnerability

- danielle laporte. i....words...jeebus. she's just...real. and every 'just do it' and 'shut up and write' - she MEANS it. its the white hot truth - 'nuff said.

- michael franti and seane corn leading a live music yoga jam in olympic square. there was shaking, there was jumping and there were some asanas. and it was goooooood.

- mike nichols and the awesomeness and awkwardness that ARE arm balances. put that ego aside and find comfort in your shaky spots. that's the juicy place to work.

i learned SO much from each and every session.  whether it was the incremental changes that i saw in my practice or the words and concepts that punched me in the forehead and are causing me into action, i am walking away in wonder, diving into my life full of passion and stepping forward knowing my vlaue and ready to take on each day, asana, challenge, sticky spot and opporutnity with my whole, complete self.

are YOU ready for it? (please say yes....)

adding it to my bucket list

i don't currently have a bucket list on paper.  i have an extensive array of things that i know i want to experience/create/meet (people)/own that flies around in my head every minute, however have not yet started the epically fun task of getting those bad boys down on paper to shout out to the world and request support in smashing some big time bucket items.  one such task, that i am now SO present to wanting to complete, is the following:

DRIVE THE LONG WAY FROM VANCOUVER TO CALGARY.

ON PURPOSE.

the long way? highway #3 - a periously twisty, most of the itme two-lane, often VERY uneven road that winds its way along the southern interior of BC through some of the most picturesque, quaint, and yes, at times startlingly ghost-like parts of the US-border region of our find province.

how this BLI ('Bucket List Item' - i shortened it - i LOVE acronyms) got added into the mix was the happenstance of a last minute road trip to Calgary coupled with the beauty we know as Mother Nature causing a massive mudslide that closed the Trans-Canada between Revelstoke and Golden (a large leg of the highway that was not reopened until about 36 hours after the slide).  I was determined to make it back to Calgary for the graduation of my sister-from-another-mister, and had to do it Wednesday afternoon/evening to be in Calgary on time.  What was planned on being a midnight arrival in Calgary turned into a 5:30am entry as i watched the sun come up over the prairies on Highway 22. Caffeine shock aside, i experienced a burning desire to be stopping in every small town, road side 'view point' and hilarious photo op, yet with my arrival deadline looming i blazed on through the night.

an amazing drive, a test of my road skills and driving endurance, and the catalyst for what will be one of the funnest and potentially longest commutes to Calgary from Vancouver via one of the most beautiful and giggle inducing stretches of road i have encountered.

some highlights i am looking forward to:

- Stopping at every oversized beach chair that advertises lake life in Osoyoos and taking a series of pics

- Pulling over in Keremos at the 'Fine Gifts' shop (oh yeah - souvenirs)

- Going to EVERY fruit stand in Summerland and getting the best of the best - stomach ache anticipated

- Hitting at LEAST 4 vineyards in the Osoyoos area for 'Quality Assurance' testing

- Going out of my way to get to Nelson for the AInsworth HotSprings and the Outer Clove (BEST restaurant)

- Playing 2 or 3 probably horrendous rounds of golf in the interior courses (hey, the scenerey will be great additions to the trips' photo album)

- Rolling through Fernie and checking out the hill - then going to the waterpark at the hotel that is on the highway for a quick spin on some MASSIVE slides (i'm still quite the kid at heart)

- Taking COPIOUS amounts of pictures at the World's Biggest Truck attraction in Sparwood (hopefully with Cait and Mike - back to your roots, Trouty!)

- Stopping in the Crowsnest Pass at the Frank Slide informational center - it's a sight to see, full of history and that eerie spookiness of a city under rubble - a full sensory experience

- Finding a dude ranch on highway 22 that would hook me up with a sweet dawn or dusk trail ride, complete with bonfire acoustic guitar session (country with a true twang...my heart palpitates)

- Stopping in Longview at the Longview Beef Jerky shop and taking pictures of the joint that i used to drive WAY outta my way to get my jerky fix at (no longer on the red meat train but  the memories are of salty, salty goodness)

- Stopping at the Boston Pizza in Okotoks to raise a glass to by late friend A-Con. 'Nuff said.

There is SO much to see and do along that drive, and as i rolled in and out of these beautiful spots, i felt a swell of provincial pride that made me grin with excitement, laugh out loud, and build this lovely little plan for a 'tourist in your own town' adventure (the laughing out loud may very well have been caused by delirium from exhaustion, but i digress...).  I cannot wait for the photo diary that will result from getting off the 'main road' and getting into the most lush and green, majestic mountained area that i have had the pleasure to experience.  AND i am sure that the people that i meet along the way will be as inspiring and impactful as the environment i find them in.

been hit over the head with a 'holy crap, i should come back here some day!' thorughout your travels?  SHARE!  finding unique, weird, awesome, beautiful, sketchy and any other descriptive adjective and meeting and greeting the people there is my passion - so hook me up with some wicked cool places and people to get to know! (please and thanks, of course!)

just frickin do it already

time to take some of my own coaching/prescribed 'passion-medicine'/really-great-sounding-when-i-give-the-idea-to-others advice that i haven't been trying on or living into for myself.  and that's to do it. IT. the things that make my heart jump, my skin prickle, sometimes make my toes curl and release none other than a southern styled 'ohhhhhhhh child!' in true form to an uber excited and ramped up jess robson. and do it for me.  because i choose to, and because it works for me and makes me feel strong. what are the 'IT's? great Q, oh curious ones.

1. WRITING. duh. have i been actively engaging my brain, heart and hands in this expressive and creative mode of engaging my passion pit? only a little.  and passion pits need LOTSA love to grow into the most sky-reaching, goal crushing engines of awesome.

2. SWEATING. active pursuit of fitness goals.  not making excuses of 'busy' and attaching myself too literally to emails that need to be hummed over and meeting invites that (honestly) can wait to be sent.  do i have specific goals around this?  honestly, not right now.  practicing commitment comes first.  Then the batty goals that involve eating steamed cauliflower out of glass jars and finding different sources of protein for 5 meals in a day materialize. oh yeah.

3. SPEAKING. being in front of others, presenting content, sharing knowledge, engaging in conversations that move processes forward, coaching to light bulb moments of 'holy s#!t!' and encouraging some ballsy goals to land on someone's goals sheet. being big, bigger, biggest in this arena and doing it because I AM READY NOW. #heckyes.

those are my top 3 ITs. the writing may open doors to the speaking, and the speaking may involve a sweat date (coaching conversations on the seawall - book me for one), and vice-versa-versa.  the interconnectedness of how life rolls through our passions and keeps us whole complete and balanced is kinda mind blowing.  i guess it's true: that 'when life works, everything works' - Chip Wilson.  brilliance.

do you have any ITs? things you know you do not out of obligation or others' requests - but that you are drawn to, that make you come alive, and that can bring you out of any rut/pit of despair/gloom-n-doom mood? share.  i'm keen to see what you do for you.

being me

i've written probably 5 blog posts that have ended up sitting in my 'drafts' folder that have not made it to publish - they haven't felt quite right so i haven't been able to finish them.  

i spent time in a couple wrong post-secondary courses/departments that i took because they were the 'right thing to do'. im an achiever, ok?

i pushed, have been pushed, and continue to push myself to be more, do more, and so on.

i have been beautiful, amazing, life changing places and have met wicked cool people who are up to massive things - inspiring global change, being frickin rockstars in their own right and honing very intricate skills, taking leaps of faith and living in total and complete wonderment.

and i have been learning, loving, scoping, sensing, tasting, trying on (and taking off) different ways of being along my path to.

and today, more so than ever before, for no reason other than it's an awesome Thursday evening, i am me.  and i am here, in this moment, in my own right. being my own me, because that is exactly what and who i am.

who am i? (great question - i was hoping you would ask)

- im an endless well of energy and exuberance - i find things that i love about every minute of the day, and wish there were more of those minutes to keep that flow.

- i try to be a lot of things for a lot of people and can forget about 'the jess'.

- i run, i spin, i yoga, i dance.  sometimes i gym and lift weights.  sometimes i sit on the couch.  i listen to what my body says - even if it mentions that it could use some Ben & Jerrys (especially then, actually)

- im fired up about people - my passion is to see what makes others come alive - and to help them unlock that when maybe they can only see so far or so much of the infintessimal offering that they bring to others - those are some gooooood moments.

- i love love, and i love sharing in love. simply put.

- i really hate capital letters.

- i love the service/hospitality industry and will build/design/create spaces that facilitate the kind of open human interaction that can get missed in a drive through society - exceptional experiences with engaging interation? yes please.

- i am out to shift the world.  to enroll and engage people.  to bring a voice to a cause, a person, a place or a thing that maybe doesn't have one, doesn't know it has one, or cannot seem to find it/theirs.  there is greatness to be unleashed all around us - and giving someone or something the space to drop the 'should' or the 'it's the right thing to do's is the blow-your-socks-off kind of lightbulb moment that will spark movements.

it begins now, with sharing.  there's more to say, write, scribble on napkins, boldy state on walls and much much more.  but this blurb - a flash at my inner most loved aspects of 'jess' and the places where i truly play to my strengths - whoa.  that stuff puts a 'holy heck' flip into my stomach.  and not from fear - but from HELL YEAH. thats going to happen.  because that is me.  this is me.  now.

when cobblestone streets turn on light bulbs

as i ambled home this evening following a brisk jaunt around the seawall in downtown vancouver (thank you miss laurel richardson for the company and conversations!), i found myself negotiating the quaint cobblestone street on west 3rd avenue, contemplating whether to start making dinner and cleaning the house or to get rolling on laundry when i returned home (yes, happy dreary wednesday, vancouver).  when looking to cross arbutus, i paused briefly to allow a gleaming beacon of rain safety (read: cab) to roll through a stop sign and down the ominous, rain soaked hill.  ever so cautiously, i stepped into the street, nearly in front of an suv that i assumed had seen my obnoxiously green, yellow and white plaid (italicized for intentional emphasis) running jacket. wrong move.

had i not performed a slight stutter step, 'driver' would have flattened by plaid ass.

now, granted, it was nearly pouring.  street lights and loud outer wear should not excuse the near miss that occurred.  but, my lesson learned while walking away from that nearly fateful intersection was not about rain awareness and safe driving/crossing the street.  it's about consistency.

i didn't lash out.  i didn't kick his car, throw my used tupperware at his fender, or stand in the middle of the road stringing together colorful language in only partially sensical order.  i simply stopped, adjusted my approach to the intersection, and moved on when it was safe and clear to do so.  and, in walking away from that moment, i realized how a simple reminder of the importance of consistency fully grounded me in that instance.

yesterday evening, at a networking event put on by networkinginvan.com (thanks Jen, again, for hosting such a great session!), some of the speakers touched on what consistency means in our personal brands, and how to ensure that our representation remains uniform across all channels we connect through.  and, taking that conversation offline, that the why you show up and what you stand for in your face to face connections and how you interact with different environments (ie: cobble stone street near misses) ultimately speaks to that brand.

so, next time a freak out seems appropriate, i'll make sure i think twice.  i'll continue to ask myself 'if this was something in 'US Weekly', would my mom be proud of me?' or 'is this what i want to represent?'.  because freaking out in the middle of kitsilano could cost me some of that consistency.....and tupperware, depending on how far i end up throwing it.

connector provider.

connector comes first provider comes second

i thought i was going to defy the odds of the most recent self-assessment i took, and was somehow going to be a 'provider provider' - as, historically, those who know 'hospitality jess' and 'im trying to have everyone love me so my needs can come last'-jess, i have been known to over-persue the happiness and well-being of the masses and put the needs of yours truly on hold.  by no means am i attempting to justify or claim saint status, friends.  merely identify that many choices in the past have been in service of others' best interest and in the spirit of convenience for friends and family.  its been an ongoing battle with my own ego that i am, in fact, good enough, qualified enough and worth enough to make choices.  and, that i am ultimately responsible for the ones that i do make.  however, thats perhaps another entry.  thus, i digress.

StandOut is an  online assessment brought to you by the Marcus Buckingham Company (TMBC).  curious about how you show up in groups?  what your leadership edge is?  ideal careers?  this assessment is all that and more.  and, in being one of a lucky group of Vancouverites involved with one special conference mid-october, i had the opportunity to hear the backstory in the creation of this tool as well as the outward application of the work and the test.  and i liked what i saw.

i have always idolized connectors, and wanted to be seen as one too.  people are my passion.  whether its simply meeting new friends, reconnecting with old acquaintances, experiencing new cultures - i eat up every opportunity to meet/greet/see/experience/indulge/etc  people, old and new, friends and strangers.  and everything in between.  i have never accredited that love of meeting folks as anything other than an interest in personal stories and experiences.  and hadn't considered that interest as being the catalyst for bulding any 'name banks' or potential networks to connect myself or others to.  until recently (yes, when the test told me that was where my leadership strength was).

i had an insightful walk home from work recently, and fully 'got' the differentiating factors between what my strengths assess and then how my leadership shows up - and how they are complimentary, but serve different groups (self vs others) but are both reflective of who i am.  interesting, no?

im a glutton for learning.  and processes like this that are uber applicable to day to day personal and professional situations get me jazzed.  not only about my results, but the results of others.  the connector in me cannot get enough of knowing the people around me and who i could potentially hook them up with to make magic happen.

got any cool learning tools i should know about?  comment! do it now........or now works too. hee hee.

xo j

back on the proverbial blog-horse. wait - is that still proverbial?

there have been long hours over the last month.  late (which, coincidentally, when i first wrote the word 'late' just there, i actually typed out 'kate', my sisters' name, who is MORE than top of mind for me right now ------ ahhhhh subconscious brain, how you never cease to amaze me .... but i digress) night dinners. early morning coffee treks to starbucks. crafts.  spreadsheets.  emails.  emails. emails. emails.

one of the most fun experiences in my professional career was also one of the most trying.  and, of course, in that space, a period of time over which i learned the most about me, my personal choice and its impact, and my leadership.  who knew that one month, two close colleagues and three nights of the littlest amount of sleep imaginable would lay such impactful groundwork for lovely life lessons.

here are some good take aways from October that I am taking forward into some goal setting, non-negotiable identification, and all around 'do this to stay functional' listings:

1.  more than just liking it, my body needs (maybe NEEDS is a more impactful way to communicate the brevity here) physical activity.  yes, the whole surgery-no-lifting-hey-dont-run-so-fast situation did play into the non-exercising thing  --- but here I am assuming that this whole month REALLY made this hit home.  and, my brain NEEDS yoga.  focus, focus, focus and intention.

2.  i need more sleep than i tell myself i do/force myself to get so i can experience as much of every day as humanly possible

3.  reading makes me smarter, more efficient, more interesting to talk to, and aids in my continual learning.  reading should NOT be used as a means of inducing a flash coma (read: sleep), and the contents of the book cannot be taken in through osmosis

4.  i like people.  i like talking to people, writing notes to people, meeting new people and catching up with old friends.  im happiest when i am around wicked people doing cool shtuff and living in the happiest state they can find themselves.  i dont like sitting at home solo every night.  it makes me not my best.

5. i miss my chats with my mum, sister, dad, grandma, cousins, best friends, long lost buddies, etc, etc, etc.  being out of touch with the people that know me best makes me feel a little lost.  and i run a LOUD racket about being wrong and a bad family member/friend when i dont give these relationships enough love.

these are a mere few, and looking reflectively, some of the most obvious points of who i am that i am overly identified with.  and, that in using the 'busy' excuse, and putting my happy-needs aside, are some of the fastest lessons to be forgotten/dropped/dismissed.

november poses the opportunity to reconnect with the puzzle pieces that have fallen under the couch.  that means more blogging, longer coffee dates with friends (enjoyable ones too - not just refueling) and more of them, runs, yoga dates, date dates, and weekend adventures.

lookout VanCity - jrob is back - and in search of a seriously cheeky holiday season.

stay tuned

xo jrob

confront me if i'm not asking for help

seen '28 days'? i was 'studying' last night and doing a bit of glancing at the tv while confirming my topical knowledge of all things Human Resources and at one point, Sandra Bullock is donned with a sign that reads 'confront me if....i'm not asking for help'.  hilarity ensued around the sign, help was given when not asked for, etc, and i quickly moved back to my notes. then, my trusty friend and conscience check got me talking over dinner tonight, and the vision of that sign came swimming back into view, this time with a different context.  i get asked often if i need support in anything, if there is anything on my work plate that my team can assist me with, and, as of late, have been given loads of uber helping hands in getting through day to day deeds while i am on the mend.  what came up for me in relation to 'help', is being comfortable in making requests of people - and not just from an assistance or support standpoint.  if i want something to happen, or if i envision something of greatness that i want to experience, share, or receive from someone, i need to open up the channel of communication and get talking about it.  i need to become comfortable with the fine art of requests.

it has become quite prevalent to me lately that while i know i am an independant individual (i might be almost too good at it), there are lots of things that i do well on my own, but do SO much better with the help of and joint experience with someone else.  and i want to share those times with someone else/others.  i just make myself wrong for making requests of people or sounding like i am inconveniencing anyone.  but what is inconveniencing about doing things for people you love, right? that's how i operate for others, at least.

in a perfect world, and without judgement of self or making myself wrong for wanting/needing things/support/out pourings of love, i would find myself telling others things that i would love to see happen every day in my life.

what things, you ask?

fresh flowers, for one.

i would ask for someone to come to my home and help me with spider issues (instead of running around my house in rain boots with oven mitts and a flip flop trying to take care of them on my own)

love notes and random letters

i would ask someone to go to the art gallery with me, even for 1/2 an hour before it closes

 

i will ask more people to experience life with me.  i will be more open with what i need from those i have relationships with, and more consistent with telling them how much i appreciate the things they do for me.  and, most importantly, i will share expectations i have of myself and of them, to be able to be clear and honest in a place of complete and total understanding.

and yes, i will continue to (work on knowing how to) ask for help.

xo j

 

sit with yourself.....in this girdle

i am learning the lesson of patience, sitting quietly, truly listening to my body, and healing. and what it means to wear a girdle.

albeit, my reasoning for wearing said piece of much-outdated garmentry (its a word) is of medical purpose, not fashion.  in support (pardon the pun) of a successful and efficient recovery from a recent hernia repair surgery, the girdle is proving to be a lesson in many, many aspects of what i have come to identify as a fast paced, uber active lifestyle.

i have been forced to slow down not only how fast i walk (walk with purpose, i always say.) but how fast i speak (tight girdle and reduced lung capacity - plus stitches in your abdomen make you really aware of how deep you are breathing).  two pieces of my day to day life that i never looked at as in need of slowing down, regardless of the number of times i have been asked to repeat myself as i tend to fly through sentances.  and in wearing the girdle, and in binding myself in that one sense, i am really learning much in regards to how i can be of the same impact and create my same influence by taking that longer, intentional breath, speaking from a calm and non-rushed placed, and in moving about my day to day with awareness (due to having a LOT more time to look around and take in who and what i am experiencing without rushing by with my head down).

i am learning to ask for and accept help. and in doing so, can recognize that i am not wrong for needing it.  it just is what it is.

i am becoming comfortable with recognizing that i am tired.  and listening to that, shutting the computer, and getting into bed is going to get be further in 4 to 6 weeks than pushing through and feeling worse later.

i m having great conversations with friends and family, near and far, and am really feeling the love.

the girdle and the slower pace are teaching me much.  appreciation for what a strong core does for a body, in SO many senses, the importance of nurturing myself and my relationships with important people in my life, and an appreciation for a culture and era that values body and shape diversity, and doesnt force women into PAINFUL pieces of boning-and-binding undergarments every day. :)

i'll be out of it soon enough, but will let the lessons sink further than skin and girdle-deep.

 

xo j

new month!

holy heck, welcome to september!! the creative spark that put me up to the challenge of reconnecting with my passion for writing sent out an email the other day (to other inspired, creative and productive individuals that she had challenged with the same tempting feat of committing to taking on their passion for that something special that gets us all excited) to check in, check up, and rechallenge.  and not a challenge in a negative connotation where you feel you can say 'no', but a re-offering of giving yourself the space to connect with your creative side, and keep up with the projects we had all set out to work on, work through and develop through the month of August.

and thank you, miss laurel, for doing so, as i was more than starting to make excuses and let larry the ego (im pretty sure thats the name we landed on for him......) tell me that i needed time to find a purpose to write something - that the value was falling out of what i was writing about, and that the things that have been going on in my personal life took precedence, and were not to be used as insight or content for my online voice and what i want to share.  i became convinced that compartmentalizing was the only way to make an impact.  which truly is silly and goes against the way i live day to day. 

helloooooooo inauthenticity.

work, personal life, health, all go hand in hand.  while perhaps the content does not always flow from one part of my life to another, who i choose to show up as, how i represent myself and the principles that i operate under are constants. non-negotiable.  i am a coach and mentor who shares openly to create space for the development of authentic relationships. i am a loving friend and family member who is a constant and clear stand for the happiness and wellbeing of others.  i choose my attitude and who i am going to be for others each and every day.

THUS: i choose to take on this project for september without excuse, complaint or ego.  just doing it because i love writing, i love sharing, and i love relatedness.

and i love love.

just sayin'

xo j

life lines

diving into relationships from the far and more recent past is always a fun excursion.  the newer relationships that you take the time to look back on are full of fresh memories - you share recent accomplishments, awkwardness, local awesomenessa dn day to day shenanigans.  all beautiful things to share, and are the foundation for future, DMC (deep meaningful conversations.....i shortened it) based memories that end up shaping epic, life long friendships, work-relationships and romantical relates as well.  then you look at the relationships that had their topical beginngs years ago - that have had years to become those epic relationships where neither time nor distance nor connectivity change the fact that they know you better than anyone.  these are life lines.  

spending time in your home town, randomly reconnecting with old friends because 'something told you to get in touch with them', or mentioning a name in passing that sparks a memory with another, all these are opportunities in revisitng old school memories with the coolest friends in your book.  the ones that know you best.

 

its honestly amazing to see how life events bring people together, back together, together again, creating space for the estranged to become identified once again.  how good it feels to find that person again, waiting for your update, seeming to have been waiting for you to pick up the phone and chat like you just saw eachother yesterday.  and how much better does it feel to reconnect in situations where you get to show them your stand for your relationship, be an authentic representation of not only yourself but also your friendship, and to be able to share how that person has impacted your life over the years - through inspiration, dedication, honesty, integrity, and so many other things.  great is a friendship where you never stop learning about the other party - where time only makes you more curious, more engaged, and increasingly in awe of the other.

 

i learned much about myself and some of my closest friends this weekend. much about how i have shown up for others, and the impact on their lives that my choices have made. cool was the chance to share, to talk, to laugh and cry together.  thank you for a beautiful weekend of learning, ladies of the south cowtown people-ship.  we have some serious specialness going on in our lives because of one another.  a lot of beans in a pot of awesome-broth.  just saying.

every day im reconnecting!!

xo j

be it to share it

it seems that the concept of sharing ourselves is coming up time and time again in conversation - and in sharing ourselves i am speaking in regards to being able to coach others on a life event, a change, or a new concept from a place of personal experience.  being open to learning has allowed me to experience things in my personal development, listen from a place of wonder and curiosity when new concepts are introduced into my environment, interpret my feelings and concerns about what comes up inherently, and to be able to articulate the recognition process i experienced to others. taking myself on hasn't been the easiest journey, as there is so much personal responsibility that i have had to accept and assign to myself when it is so much easier to point a finger and expect others to do things for you.  but, in taking that step back, looking at the choices that i make, and then looking at who i have been and how i have represented my true self in those actions have been the biggest learnings.

recognition of personal choice is the root of being able to accept personal responsibility in each and every minute of each and every day.  and, in going through the work to identify with what it means in your specific space to accept and own that responsibility and your action of choice, we learn to be, and thus we share.  my biggest wins when coaching others, chatting possibility and really looking at the biggest, most audacious visions and goals have come just following times when i have been through great coaching, have put myself through some big possibility talks, and have created and been open to big old hairy audacious goal setting and vision work myself.

authentic conversations have been my key to success, and an open point of sharing and communication.  i'm still learning to articulate fully to be completely expressed - an ongoing journey indeed.

sharing is caring, don't forget.

xo j

challenging challenges

i heart the grind. i love the crisp mornings, the deep burn of the 2.9 km worth of uneven stairs, and the sweet reward of a hot coffee treat when you summit.  there is the mental work of getting over the sheer insanity of what you are doing, and the chance to be with yourself and sort out what's mulling through your head, create some to do lists for the day, and settle some scores with your ego about what you can (and some days, cannot!) challenge your body with each and every day.

physical challenge of this week:  Grind it out monday to friday

mental challenge of this week: take on life's mystifying nuances and let them push you UP the mountain, and not let them keep you in bed as your alarm clock rings after hitting sleep 6 or more times

creating a physical challenge has given me the space this week to face my mental challenges, get present to what is really coming up within those new, different and tough spaces and find comfort in each and every step/feeling/realization.  while i can be the strong leader of the grind some days, there are others where i need to be inspired to keep moving - to have someone pull me up the mountain with them.  much like i can be a leader in my personal relationships, and be of continual service to others' needs, there is just as much value in allowing myself to find comfort in being supported, to be ok with asking for help, and to sit with emotions that come up and let them fully work their magic on my personal healing.

i am learning to find that space.  to give to wholly to others when they need to be supported, and to give it to myself when i need to step back and let myself be whatever it is that my head and heart decide is right in that moment.  and learning to really live in that moment.  every day.

good choices, friends.

xo j

smell the roses, robson

i was given some feedback in the recent past that an opportunity that this person saw for me was to slow down, stop, and smell the roses.  take some time to look around,reconnect with the thigns about my immediate environment that i know and love, and stop throwing myself so far into tomorrow, next week, next month and next year.  being futuristic is one thing, worrying about the unknown is another! so, i slowed down, get reconnected and yes, spent time taking in the amazingness (it's a word) that is the Kits Beach area.  then, i made myself 'busy' again......and stopped looking. the whole concept of being happy in the moment and letting go of the need to know, the need to rush ahead, came to 100% grinding halt fruition this weekend.  on BC ferries.

i set myself up in a sunny patch on deck 7, the viewing deck, after walk-on boarding at the Tsawassen Terminal (and yes, I had been moving at a road runner's pace to get past all the tourists and get the 'best spot').  and, after settling in with my books, went straight into my studying without looking up....until the space started to fill and my space-monster started to feel threatened.

the deck was all of a sudden PACKED with people enjoying the sun, and moreso the view.  to me, it's open water, green foliage, and ridiculous houses speckled on the islands.  to the people experiencing it for the fist time, its something new, unique, and 'oh so west coast'.  i know my selfish 'this is my space' friend named Larry was cropping up, preventing me from experiencing the majesty of the crossing with these first-timers, and making them all wrong for being so excited about what they were seeing.  that is, until I more than just lifted my head to look around.  i took off the headphones, put away the books, moved out of the corner onto a bench, and ended up in conversation with a couple young families.

i love being on the water, in the water, and more or less just in the presence of something so seemingly calm but so obviously powerful.  I think the islands are beautfitul.  and I LOVE that the number of people who were so excited to experience the gloriousness that are the islands.  i just need to recognize that love that rings true to every day, every environment, and get my head ot of the proverbial books a little more often.

Jenny: get your head outta the books in TO and SEE the city.  Be there lady! CONGRATULATIONS and all the best in this new chapter of your life! YOU ROCK!

xo j

out of integrity, but honoring my word

a clearing:  my commitment was to blog once a day for the 31 days in august. my actions yesterday afernoon and evening placed me in the spot of deciding that I would 'just do it later'.

the result:  a later than planned evening at work, a short amount of time at home, and a later evening (early morning) home from a dear friend's birthday - all preamble to not completing a post for Friday, August 19, 2011.

sincere apologies.

however, i am honoring my word to the committment that i made, and recognize that in not blogging yesterday i am not wrong, bad, or accountable to anyone other than myself.  AND, see that if i had tried to blog in a flurry after work, or in a stupor following a cocktail infused evening, i would not have been standing for the quality of content that i would want associated with this challenge.  THUS,  a skip and a miss, but an opportunity to acknowledge that quality over quantity is of value to me!

i will stand for the challenge that i have taken on, and continue to write daily, but will be intentional in making time to sit down and think through the content. promise.

 

as such, i am going to log off.

as there is a caesar at Oyster calling my name.  hello Victoria, I have missed you. xo j

jam sessions

what a cool couple of days. not only was i exposed to some of the most insightful and inspiring goals that my peers are chasing, approaching and crushing, i was living and breathing specific and beautiful visions with these strong, identified, and passionate human beings who are so excited to create and live in possibility for what they can create, unrestrained, for their future. epic, epic, epic.

to top it all off, this evening was spent in the company of inspired people, the artisitc community in Vancouver, and individuals working for a bigger cause and inspiring action in their social networks.

submiT vancouver, a fund raising event for imagine1day and their initiative that 'All Ethiopians have access to quality education free of foreign aid by 2030' was on the event schedule for tonight, taking place at Performance Works on Granville Island.  A group of engaged individuals created their notion of what a contribution looked like.  they made their CREATRIBUTION, and it was a great success!

drinks, appetizers and eclaires (ohhh yes) aside, being in the space of local artists sharing their craft in support of something bigger (a bigger picture, if you will) sparked some conversation with a couple firey friends that have hige huge ideas.  The brainstorming that was a direct result of being around art, conribution, dynamic change initiatives and some GREAT dance moves (of course - this is how we do!!) was insane.  Concepts for other events that will carry forward the feeling of achieving amazing goals while supporting anothers' goals and the bigger picture (Global Leadership, if you ask me!) began flying around - the energy was palpitable.  The excitement was electric.  And the ideas just kept getting bigger....and bigger.......!

I realized tonight that I have the capacity to contribute to and collaborate in conversations built on a crazy, unique and utterly spectacular concepts, and that in holding back or using a negative way of approaching the possibility, I ultimately lose of power of speech, and make something huge and significant a 'maybe' or a 'no'.  Ultimately, I will create the space for youth to learn, grow and become powerful and engaged leaders in their communities.  And it is all going to start with a bike ride.

More to come on that front -

have a great Friday! Mine is going to be filled with ideation, creation, and a WHOLE bunch of other awesomeness.  I can just feel it!!

xo j

coming at you - fast and hard

DEVELOPMENT BONG! like a beer bong that you would craft out of supplies from Home Depot, but replace a cardonated barley-hops-sugar-water concoction with words of inspiration, questions why, concepts, feelings and emotions, coupled with values and new pieces of culture, culture, culture, and you've got immersion into a new corporate culture delivered via the DEVELOPMENT BONG!

 

conversations that have started in my world as of late have been inspiring, interesting, engaging and exciting! with so much changing within our corporate world, our personal lives and our relationships, SO many questions have been asked, emotions have been brought to the surface, and inquiries have been investigated and approached with open arms - this amount of awareness and recognition for what is facing us as opportunities and in looking at where we have been in celebration, in short bursts, is the content of the D-BONG.  It hits you hard, catches you off guard, but is something that people get SO flippin excited about that they cannot help but lead you down the funnel and shoot you into the world with thoughts, concepts and feedback splashed all over your t-shirt.

 

having a tough conversation? someone asking big questions that get you so excited for the potential of the conversation and the possibility at hand?  grab your most confident smile, open the space for candor and feedback, and crack open the development - then throw it down the bong and get the ideas rolling!  the receiver will maybe be caught off guard by how much they have to offer or how they are showing up, but the chance to share openly and have the feedback land with love and respect makes for some EPIC conversations.

and chugging skills.

xo j

a bud for you

who can resist the glowing faces of gerber daisies?? life can use some brightening up every now and again - and nothing can add a spring into someone's step who has been down in the dumps like fresh flowers in exuberantly bright (obnoxious, even!) colors.

it doesn't take much - not a dozen roses, not a huge bouquet.  just a stem or two to say 'thinking of you' changes someone's day.

they don't even have to be in need of perking up.  the thought of showing someone that they are on your mind and being open with your love and care for them brings smiles all around.  and a sunny vase to stare into makes the smile come back time and time again.

maybe it's a thank you card.

perhaps you satisfy a friend's sweet tooth.

do what makes those people smile.

share your love for the people in your life.  show them you are thinking of them.

i'm thinking of my closest friends, sending love, strength and hope to everyone.

i am thinking of my family, and shooting rays of affection, appreciation, and loving care to everyone.

and i am thinking of you! and how you are going to share your love with your friends, family and community .

SHOW YOUR LOVE!

xo j